S.O.S
There’s a heaviness.. there’s a pain in my heart when I’m around this population. A feeling that makes me swell up from the deep bottom of my heart.. A feeling that makes me want to break down and cry, asking “why?”.
But there’s a joy, an overwhelming joy, when I’m with this population. A genuine smile, a genuine laughter, a genuine joy. And I know this is from God. Their simple “thank you”s makes the swelling and the pain worth it.
And now I’m wondering, I thought my calling was with a different population. I thought I had my directions all figured out because I “knew” that was my calling. So why is God breaking my heart for these people so badly? When I’m with them, I find myself smiling with so much joy and I find my heart thumping faster and faster and there’s this exhilaration inside that I can’t keep to myself.. So where is God leading me with this? This new stirring passion.. this undeniable passion..
